…Scattered Brain

What can I say?

I thank you for all the things that you’ve done for me and the kids. Not only are you a wonderful fiancee’, you’re a terrific father, provider and caregiver. We don’t have a perfect relationship, but then who does? I am so EXCITED about our future! I know that the worst is over and THE BEST IS YET TO COME!

Wishing you good health and happiness… We love you so much! mwaaaaaah!

7 days to go…

surprise!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today is my Popsie’s birthday, he would have been 50 years old. I really miss my father so much! I’m still not completely over with his sudden death as well as my two younger sisters, but I know time will heal with all this pain that I am going through right now. I don’t want to cry anymore… but I just can’t hold it… still hurts.. I love you pop!

..the pain never truly goes away, it just gets smaller and condensed, tucked away in a corner somewhere in the deep recesses of the heart. There it remains at a constant low level ache, which with time may be overridden. There may be times when a site, a smell, a place, a song, an anniversary or birthday will trigger the old memories and the intensity of the grief and loss will return again. These feelings often arrive without warning and can be just as painful making one feel as though he/she was experiencing the loss anew. - Kirsti A. Dyer, MD, MS

My Son,
if I Could Have
One Wish in
All the World
on Your Birthday…

I’d wish that you would
always be happy, forever healthy,
and that your life would be filled
with all the things that bring you
laughter and love.

I wish you a life where
your dreams come true
and your goals are achieved;
I wish that I could always
wipe any tears from your face
and make everything okay again.
I hope you will always know
that I am thinking about you
and forever wanting nothing more
than your complete happiness
in life.

It’s your happiness that brings
me such immense joy,
because you are my son
and I love you so much.
~Shelly Gross~

Happy Birthday to You, Son!

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~A Special Moment With My son, Anton~